Confusion

Through prayer, fasting and meditation i will drop below 100 pounds, the dreaded three digits. I want to be 99 or nothing. Want? Did i say want? I shouldn't say want. I shouldn't say shouldn't. You're confused?... I'm trying to eliminate my ego but that action is ego itself, all action is ego, are you following me. I'm not here with a mirror and a scale for my own good.