Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Honestly, its not easy. All i do is think about food all the time. I stare at skinny girls all the time in envy wishing i was them. Sometimes i stare at myself in the mirror and end up sobbing. I was once happy when i was skinny. My mum hated that i was so thin but i loved it. Now i'm so overweight, so bloody obese i'm just a freakin disgusting lump of lard. She always tells me that i look good. But isn't that what mothers are meant to do. I'm done lying to myself. The truth is am a fat disgusting person that no one will ever love. I'm such a fatass. Why can't i just stop eating. You don't deserve food. I don't deserve food, i don't deserve anything. They say perfection can't be achieved but how would they know if they never tried. I want a perfect body, i want a perfect soul. How many times have i created pro ana blogs and deleted them. How many times have i tried to convince myself that i don't need her. Who am i fooling. Ana will probably ruin my life but it will be worth it in the end. I just want to be happy.
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I want to be happy too. The sad truth is even though the pounds will drop,so will our moods. It's all a downward spiral from here. We can fool ourselves into thinking we are achieiving happiness but in all reality we are only achieving pain and misery. I know that won't stop you or me for that matter. Don't know what the purpose of this was. Just ignore it.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, gorgeous!
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unbeautiful said...
ReplyDeleteI want to be happy too. The sad truth is even though the pounds will drop,so will our moods.
- But when you reach your weight goal the feeling is unbelievable and everything is worth it in the end.
Keep it up because you can do it :)
<3
I thought I couldn't live without Stan, and that he would destroy me. But Stan was a stanley knife, and I was the chopping board. But I ditched Stan and found someone new instead. I found me. And me is much better, and me makes me happier than Stan ever could. Stan was jealous, unforgiving, cruel, and a con artist. He promised happiness he couldn't bring, and I gave him plenty of chances! Once I met me, and romanced me, and loved me, I met lots of other people who were loving and supporting too.. my best friends, my family, my wonderful boyfriend... all people that jealous Stan wouldn't let me have. So I told Stan to take a fucking good hike and not to come back, and he fought and I fought and we battled for about a year. But eventually the bastard fucked off. I stopped missing the abusive bastard in that one- sided relationship. And my life started again. And I've never been happier.
ReplyDeleteDon't let that absolute BITCH Ana win, tell her to fuck off, maybe her and Stan can make a life together somewhere that me and you don't need them. Good luck, you have all my respect and wishes. Don't stop your fight. Xx
You deserve all good things. I dream of being beautiful and skinny too....but I know that when I´ll get to skinny I won´t be able to see it...
ReplyDeletePlease take care
xx
I know exactly how you feel..you're not alone, so many people feel that way.
ReplyDeleteTake care of yourself :) Things are much better than they look when you see yourself in the mirror xx
hey honey!
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hun i kno just how you feel, really. hang in there <3 <3 it will get better :)
ReplyDeleteyou can be loved, and you deserve much mor than you think!
http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_UTaA6Xl-n7g/TOtU3tCknuI/AAAAAAAAABI/o3UgsqnMyLQ/s640/bk.jpg i read this every day. i actually have a tattoo based on it. just wanted to share it with you <3 <3
xox
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